Lucas frowned.
“I’m here to tell you that everything you think about me is true,” Daniel said. “I was selfish. I was scared. I left because I believed poverty was the worst thing that could happen to me. I never stopped to think what would happen to the people I left inside it.”
Lucas kicked a bottle cap off the sidewalk. “You want credit for finally understanding something obvious?”
“No.”
“Then what do you want?”
“A chance to make sure your life is bigger than my failure.”
Lucas stopped walking. “Don’t do that.”
“Do what?”
“Say it like you care more about me than about fixing yourself.”
Daniel took the hit. “Maybe it started that way,” he said. “Maybe it started with guilt. But guilt doesn’t keep a man here for weeks when he could go back to a life that’s easier in every way. Something else does.”
Lucas’s eyes were bright in the dark. “You don’t know me.”
“I want to.”
“I didn’t need you when I was five and afraid of thunder. I didn’t need you when Mom lied to me and said you were working far away. I didn’t need you when the lights got cut off and I held Miguel because he was scared. I didn’t need you when Maria got sick and Mom didn’t eat so we could. So don’t come now and act like wanting to know me is some gift.”
Daniel felt the full force of each sentence.
“I know,” he said. “And you’re right.”
Lucas laughed once, bitterly. “That’s all you ever say.”
“Because you keep telling the truth.”
For a second the boy looked almost disappointed, as if he had wanted a fight and did not know what to do with surrender.
Then he said quietly, “I want to study engineering.”
Daniel smiled despite himself. “I know.”
“How?”
“Your mother told me.”
Lucas looked away. “I don’t want it because of you.”
“I didn’t think you did.”
“I want it because I’m good at it.”
“I know.”
“And if I take your money for school, it doesn’t mean you get to call yourself my father.”
Daniel nodded. “Then I won’t.”
Lucas swallowed. “I hate that you can help.”
“So do I,” Daniel said.
That finally made the boy look at him.
It was not forgiveness.
But it was the first crack in the door.
Daniel set up an education fund the next week, not in his own name, but through a structure Lucas could accept without feeling purchased. Valentina cried when she saw the paperwork. Not from gratitude exactly. From the pain of watching possibility arrive years after it should have.
For the first time in a long time, she quit one of her jobs.
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