That costs you something. Everything in you wants to look directly at her until she remembers every ugly word she ever used against your sister and hears it back in the shape of your silence. But not yet. Monsters grow careless when they believe they are still looking at prey.
“Sofi needs dinner,” you say softly.
Teresa snorts.
“Then cook.”
The kitchen is a narrow corridor pretending to be a room.
A dented refrigerator, one sticky window, a sink with chipped enamel, and an old stove with only three reliable burners. You open the cabinets and feel rage rise like heat under a closed lid. Barely any food. Pasta, oil, stale crackers, rice. In the corner, hidden behind tea tins, you find two fruit cups and a packet of animal crackers wrapped carefully in a dish towel.
Lidia’s stash for Sofi.
You make rice, eggs, and whatever vegetables are still decent enough to cut. Sofi sits at the table watching you with solemn concentration while Teresa complains from the other room that you take too long and waste too much. Verónica wanders in only to ask whether Damián knows you were at “the asylum” longer than expected, then smiles when she says the word.
You say almost nothing.
Silence is easier for them to misread than argument. They take your quiet for weakness, exactly as cruel people always do. By the time the front door slams open an hour later and Damián walks in smelling like alcohol, cheap cologne, and entitlement, the house has already given you more information than any confession could have.
He is taller than you pictured.
Not because Lidia described him as imposing, but because fear tends to enlarge the people who hurt us. In person, he is just a man with broad shoulders gone soft around the edges, bloodshot eyes, and a face that still wears enough charm to fool strangers for the length of a dinner. He kisses Sofi on the head without really looking at her, then glances at you.
“You’re back late,” he says.
The sentence sounds normal until you hear the ownership underneath it.
No hello. No how is your sister. Not even the fake tenderness abusive men sometimes perform when other witnesses are present. Just a mild complaint, casual as a receipt, because to him Lidia’s time belongs to the house the way plates and mops do.
“I stayed longer than I planned,” you answer.
He tosses his keys on the table and looks at your face more closely.
For one terrible second, you think he sees through you. That somehow the years outside and inside those white walls marked you differently than they did Lidia, that strength has a posture even when it is trying to hide. But then he shrugs, sits down, and asks what there is to eat, as if the whole world were only a chain of services arriving too slowly.
Dinner tells you more.
Teresa criticizes the rice. Verónica says the eggs are rubbery. Damián complains that the beer is warm, then asks for money from Lidia’s housekeeping envelope because he “covered the important bills this week.” Sofi drops her spoon once and freezes so completely you can feel your hands tightening beneath the table.
No one comforts her.
That may be the ugliest part. Not the insult, not the greed, not the way Damián taps the table with two fingers when he wants your attention like you are waitstaff in his private restaurant. The ugliest part is how ordinary they make cruelty feel. Not an eruption. A climate.
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