That was the moment I understood something clearly:
No one was coming to save me.
If I wanted to survive, I would have to learn how.
So I began to watch.
I watched the forest. The trails. The leaves. The smoke. The timing of the birds. The herbs that soothed pain. The wood that preserved meat. The way the seasons moved.
I listened more than I spoke.
I learned what the forest gave to women who paid attention.
At the river, I met the other women from the edge of the woods. They laughed loudly, talked about husbands and children, and scrubbed clothes against the stones while gossip flowed around them. I stayed quiet for a long time.
Then one day, I laughed.
It was only a small laugh, but even that surprised us all. Bell, the oldest woman there, looked at me and said, “That is the first time I have heard you laugh.”
I smiled and said, “I had forgotten what my laugh sounded like.”
Something began to shift after that.
One afternoon, I smoked a piece of meat the way I had seen hunters preserve game. I used a certain kind of wood, certain leaves, and a few herbs I had discovered on my walks. When it finished, the smell was rich and deep and unlike anything I had ever known.
A traveler passing through bought some by chance.
A week later he came back asking for more.
Then others came.
I began preparing small bundles wrapped in banana leaves. I sold them quietly, saying little. With the money, I bought soap, salt, and a piece of cloth with flowers on it. I hid everything at the bottom of my basket.
The hunter never noticed.
He thought food simply appeared. He thought the soap came from favors. He thought the world still revolved around him.
He did not understand that while he slept drunk on the mat, I was building something.
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